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So it looks like we're moving. To Utah. In like a month. It's not 100% official but its about 99.9% official. Brock had three companies who interviewed him. The first was the job in Albuquerque, then this Utah job, then Intel in Chandler. Out of the three, the job in Utah felt right. It's crazy to think we're going to live out of state away from our families. I've never been one to deal with change very well. Ok, sometimes not at all. BUT, I know this will be good for our little family. As hard as it will be to leave, I'm excited to start this new chapter of our lives. I have a cousin who lives in Utah & that's about it. I don't really know anyone else & that's kinda scary to me. I feel like I'm in Junior High all over again... will people like me? Am I going to be considered a jack mormon? Cuz let's be honest... I drink caffeine & in Utah that's unthinkable (unless times have changed). The job is in Lehi but I don't know if we'll live there or somewhere close by. I'm hoping I can find a job that will allow me to work enough to keep up my skills as a nurse but let me be a mom. Brock says I don't have to work if I don't want to but I've worked hard for my degree & don't want it to go to waste so we'll see what happens. Brock seems to be excited about this job which hasn't really happened for the other jobs. It's kind of a big deal for us to pack up & move so I hope this is where we're supposed to be. Look out Utah, here come the Huffakers!

I truly believe life isn't fair but I also know its not supposed to be. Today, I cared for the sweetest patient who was dying....not like any minute but if I had to guess, within the next few weeks. My assistant & I cleaned this person up (which was somewhat painful for them)& before I left the room I asked if there was anything else I could do. This sweet person looks at me with tired eyes & says, "Just let me die." I didnt really know what to say to that. Nothing I do or say will bring this person comfort. It broke my heart & I almost started to cry in front of her. I said a silent prayer in my heart that God would ease her pain & suffering. It made me sad I couldn't do more. I know this is pretty depressing but something about that moment today touched my heart & got me thinking about how Christ has suffered & endured our trials. It made me sad & grateful at the same time & I will never forget that moment today. Its kind of hard for me to fully explain how this affected me.

Anyways, in happier news, Brock has had a couple interviews for jobs! The first one was in Albuquerque at Sandia National Laboratories. The benefits are amazing & it sounds like they want to offer him the job we're just waiting for a formal letter in the mail. He also had a couple phone interviews with some company in Lehi, Utah. I'm really excited about this company & if they're interested in hiring Brock, they'll fly him out to get to know him better, etc. It wouldn't be official if he flew out but it would be a step in the right direction. Addie is getting SO big! She is also smiling and laughing like crazy. She is my best friend & sometimes I can't wait for her to wake up from her nap so we can play. Going back to work has been tough & I'm sure excited to see her when I get home. Hmmm, what else has been going on? Life has pretty much been work, babysitting, and more work with the occasional swim party at Shalene's house. We had our second haboob here in the valley, & yes I said haboob. Apparently, its a huge dust storm & its the craziest thing to see! It cool but then I'm all paranoid I'm going to get Valley Fever which can be a realy bad thing. Well, thats pretty much it for us... Life isn't too exciting but sometimes I'm ok with that. Pictures to come later!